not very happy
I haven't been very happy recently so Conan's been nice enough to try to cheer me up.....He suggested for me to go bowling with him and Warren cause we haven't hung out for a while.
So after maths tutor on Tuesday, he came to pick me up and drove me and Ando to Cooks Hill Hotel at Cabra.
There was a huge line and when I got there I was freaked out because it looked so shifty.
The security guard asked us if we were all 18 and the nine of us just said yes. LOL
So we went in and had dinner - everyone had steak and I had fish, and also we played pool.
I left like half of my food and so Warren said it was a waste and everyone just snatched the rest of the food from my plate. LOL.
Ananda finished his salad first.. and started eating everyone else's salad.... until I pointed it out to him in which he claimed that he liked the salad here.. but also bursted out saying FINE I'LL EAT THE STEAK. *angry face* hahahahs
Anyways after a few round of pool.. *I accidentally shot the black ball in SORRY!*
we drove our way to some bowling place at Fairfield... which also looked very shifty.
We ended up not playing because I had a curfew and had to get home before 10pm so everyone had to head home too... *sorry for ruining your night guys!
Butttt yeah. In the end, Conan apologised for making me feel uncomfortable throughout the night in which I said it was alright because he tried. And he then drove me and Ando homeeee~~~
mm I guess it cheered me up a bit seeing that everyone was trying so hard to help me fit in...
but yeah. I guess it's just up to me now to feel better about certain things..
not really helpingggggg........
Also, I just spent liek 500bux on my brothers today.. I mean yesterday since it is 2am now... I'm such a nice sister... lols. jks
hmmmm... guess I should go to sleep now.
Night Night.
Labels: Friends, outing, unhappy
late night ramble: need new phone
Recently my dad asked me if I wanted an Iphone4, but since I dislike apple products I said no.But then like a week later, he managed to grab himself one and thinks he's like top sh*t because to him, it's just cool to have one.
After that, he also upgraded my mum's phone into a HTC Desire HD, the phone that I was looking into buying.
And now, because I've had the LG Renoir for about 3yrs, it's wearing down and dying on me.. (battery life is drained super fast - yes I have purchased numerous batteries, screen is screwing up, certain functions not working, lags like a bitch.. the list goes on. Bascially I can't do anything other than text or call).. and I've realised that the amount of money I have wasted on fixing this phone in order for it to even function was enough to buy me a new one.
* sigh... depressing.
I need a new phone.
Like.
Fast.
)):
NOTE TO SELF:
- next time when offered a free new phone from parents: just take it
- never buy LG phones ever again
depressing
My heart goes out to all the people affected by the devastating earthquake in Japan.
We're starting to get more natural disasters these days.. it's what happens when human beings take advantage of mother earth and ultimately destroy certain natural cycles.
I guess she's just letting off some steam out and getting revenge.
):
Anyways, I'm going back to study now.
Have exams on Monday. )):
Everyone should stay safe and keep warm.
Huggle up to your loved ones tonight and pray for those who are currently in unfortunate situations!
Labels: HSC, study, unhappy, weather
EXAM TIMETABLES!
This means I won't be able to celebrate my birthday on Saturday since 4U is on the following Monday. grrrrr
why couldn't they just fit my whole exam schedule on the first week !?? T ~ T;
It was nice while it lasted
I have quit 'mono' after 5yrs of joy.Signed up in yr4 and thought it was the scariest, strictest place on earth..
Join halfway through yr7. It was scary and became a bother to attend night classes for 3 times a week at first but you eventually get used to it.
Becomes an everyday routine... and you get really attached to the place especially the people there... good memories...
but now.. it's time for me to focus on my studies and leave!
see you in the future! I'll miss those good timessss ~~~
dog and dogged.
Jeans for Genes day today! and I bought myself a $5 badge to support the foundation.It's a major fundraiser for the Children's Medical Research Institute.
(:
mm went to visit Mish's new puppy during lunch.
She randomly bought it with her boyfriend the other day simply because they saw it and felt like it.
It's a Silky Terrier x Maltese, 2months old and still nameless. He's super adorable though, because he literally licks anyone he meets and gets super excited when someone new comes around.
Anyways.. after I gave the puppy back to Mish, I headed off to city in hopes of .. doing something..
like watch Step Up 3D...
since I'm missing out on Khalil's concert which is literally in one and a half hrs. );
Cici came for like half an hour and told me she had to go because her mum insisted her to go home..
then her bf came and they walked off while I bumped into Zac, Sandy and Ricky.
Yeah.. I ended up going home because it was so depressing..
Labels: fundraising, unhappy
fml.
Got super sick this morning and spewed on the train... yeah I know.. gross. = =;;puked at recess and lunch after I ate my sandwich as well...
and now my mild cold's turned into a major flu. i think. grrrrrrrrrr!!!
Anyways, I went to check up on the Khalil tickets at the entertainment center today and all the tickets were sold out except for the VIP tickets. So unfortunately, I won't be attending his concert this year. ):
Went to CEO for an hour after that and then had lunch at Roll+ outside the Dixon Center.
The owners of that little restaurant were very very nice to me. I love their personalities! Adorable couple indeed.
(:
That's basically it. yeah.. shit day. embarrassed as shit. and feel super shit as well.
Term 3; Last Term of Prelim
The pressure's on since term 3 has officially started.Last week was the first week of term 3 and I have to say... it's kinda all crumbling down and slapping me across the face now.
I know Preliminaries don't count towards my HSC but at this rate, I don't even THINK that I'm going to get anywhere close to the course I want to get into at Uni.
I also know that if I just somehow stop procrastinating and just work on whatever I need to, I'll get through everything like a breeze.
But... I can't.
It's like a habit that stays with all of us and refuses to leave us until we actually fall to the very rock bottom.
Some are born talented. Some has to work their asses off for their marks. And some.. are just too lazy to give a f**k.
heh. It's funny because I actually ended up slapping myself before I sleep because I know I can do it. But I just don't. And then the regret starts tumbling in. And you start blaming yourself for everything that's happened.
The fact that I now go to St George Girls doesn't help very much either. Yes, the girls there are smart as ****, but hey, if 90% of the school has private tutors and amazingly well off families, it's not really an issue huh? Yes, I know not all of them are like that. But the majority makes all the difference.
I guess I shouldn't be the one complaining, because everyone's under this kind of pressure right now. But I just wanted to get it out of my system and somehow write it down so I can look back the same time next year and laugh at how foolish I was.
We all seek for success. But the depressing part to it is that.. not all of us gain it.
life?
mum got into a little car accident yesterday..everyone's depressed and angry.
dad was getting better but now he's just like before ..
why does it have to be so complicated?
It's all taking a toll on me ~
Labels: unhappy
UNHAPPY = COFFEE SHOP THERAPY
I'm still unhappy about my Ext Maths Exam...So I went out to Gloria Jeans today just to calm myself.. and think everything through~
I really have a thing for coffee shops .. something about the place just makes me feel like a complete person.
The aroma, atmosphere, music, coffee.. the list goes on and on ~~
Today I ordered an Ice Cappuccino with whipped cream..
It's very fattening I know.. but I just needed some sweetness in my life to cheer me up.
I don't impulse buy.. it's just that my other pair looks like it's gonna fall apart so I seriously needed a new pair of flat shoes ~
WHY TRY?
WARNING : This does get personal, so if you don't like it then FOOK OFF & STOP TROLLING.
FFS! They seriously have to realise that money can't buy you everything, and also the fact that screaming their lungs out in front of me doesn't quite make much of a difference.
FOR CHRIST SAKES!
They never have the courtesy to even try to listen ~
And they should really understand that I'm currently in my Preliminary HSC, studying my ass off just so that in the future they don't ever have to care about money issues anymore... but instead, they just .. they don't even know the effect it has on us kids, huh?
....
I'm just so sick of it...
Every night I just...
.. why do I even bother with trying so hard..?
..
...someone once told me to do it for myself, but if it wasn't for the sake of my parents, I would've never started trying...
Hopefully someday they'll start listening.. but .. I guess it'll be too late...
Because by then.. it wouldn't really matter as much.
A family with no love or understanding is not a family..
We're just mere strangers who sleep in the same house...
mood : sick of it all (*´ο`*)=3
-----------------update later............
